Little miss make up
So today I want to talk about depression.
As you all know from my previous depression blog, I have been battling depression with eight years. I have been diagnoised with depression.
I have been doung a lot better lately but since I have been in this extremely bad flare it has been so so hard for me.
As the physical pain gets worse, my mental pain comes back to bite me in the ass!
Its so hard to be positive all the time and even though I know this feeling will pass it's hard to see it.
I will always struggle with my conditions and as I'm getting older, each condition is getting worse. Today I have myself locked in my room. I don't want to talk to anybody I just want to be alone. I feel like bawling like I'm going to explode with emotions and I know it's my medication keeping me from breaking down. I'm physically and mentally exhausted. I feel drained. I'm doing a blog because I find it helps me on days like today.
even though I don't want to talk to anybody, typing how I feel is therapeutic.
I am on new medication that help me sleep and also help with my depression and anxiety but they will take sometime to fully take effect.
I am sleeping better but today I am so on edge. Every little noise is driving me insane. I don't know whether to cry or lash out.
I dont feel feel like doing anything. On the plus side I can't stop eating. When I get very down I either don't eat or I can't stop eating.
I know now that I am just having a bad day and hopefully it will pass soon.
Thanks for reading,
Lots of love,
Little miss make up xox.