Little miss make up
Today I want to tell ye about an episode I had with my heart condition on Saturday. The scariest one to date. I thought I was going to die.
Last Saturday, I got up early and went to mind my great gran. I was exhausted and had a horrible headache allay. I didn't think, I should of known this headache was a sign of another episode. I feel stupid now, thinking back, it was a sign from my body to watch out.
I got home home and I was freezing, while all the time my head was still pounding. I sat by the fire beside my dad and we watched some tv. I munched on some Halloween nuts.
Dad then went to have he's shower, I got up and lid on the sofa with a blanket. I was snap chatting my dogs and watching catchphrase, when all of a sudden I felt on fire. It was like I was in boiling bath of water. I called for my brother, then called again. I could see my water on the floor so I tried to get to it. I couldn't talk no more, I could barely catch my breath.
I dont remember my brother walking out of he's room to the sitting room, all I remember is he's scream for help when he seen me thrown across the sitting room floor.
Hes girlfriend rachel was by my side in seconds. My brother banged on the bathroom door for my dad. He ran to the kitchen for salt and vinegar crisps and water. I tried to get the crisps and water into me but I couldn't. This never happened before. I never felt this bad. Gasping for breath, my legs went numb, a flush of heat all over my body and my heart pounding so loud I could barely hear.
Rachel, helped sit me up. Everything was blurry and swaying. I was flopped again the couch when I vomited and vomited again. Then all of a sudden my stomach cramped up and I could feel my bowels about to open. I asked Rachel to bring me to the bathroom. I didn't want to soil myself, not again. It has happened in the past. I sometimes have no control over my organs.
She got me to the bathroom just in time. I sat there, unable to move and Rachel took off my leggings. She gave me a bottle of water to try get my tempature down. I couldn't stomach it. I felt so nauseous. I poured it over my face to try and shock my body. It didn't work but it did help. I got her to pour the ice cold water down my back. I didn't flinch or move a muscle as the water poured down, my body was so hot, the cold water didn't bother it and for the fact I couldn't move and had pins and needles all over me.
with that I gushed and gushed all over the floor. I though this was it. It wasn't going away, I wasn't feeling better, I though I was going to die. Never have I felt so horrible, the feeling is so horrendous I can't even describe it. My body was still on fire so Rachel turned on the shower and sat me in on my seat. I sat while the cold water showered over me and it felt so nice.
After five minutes I finally started to come around a small bit. I started to shiver, it was working. Rachel got me up and put a towel around me. She helped me to my room and lid me in bed. It still wasn't over but it was getting better. I was going to be ok. Once I cooled down more Rachel then dressed me. I still couldn't move much and my bowel had notted. The pain in my bowel was horrendous but I could actually talk now. I could tell them how I was feeling. Before I could only get the odd word out.
After another ten minutes or so, I was back to myself. I was exhausted but I was ok. It takes a lot out of me having these episodes. I asked Rachel for some toast and she knew that was a sign I felt ok.
I fell asleep not long after my toast. When I woke the next morning it was like a dark cloud had fell over me. I was so terrified of having another episode I would of rather been dead than have one, but at the same time I was terrified I would have another one and I would die the next time.
That at night was the worst night of my life (illness wise). I am now on beta blockers to try and slow down my heart rate. I'm praying they will work because I can't go threw that again.
Thanks so much for reading.
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lots of love,